Alright, this ask has been sitting in my inbox for a few days, and I have been kind of scared to answer it.
I figure I owe y’all an explanation, though, because there are a lot of people following this fanfiction blog, and I don’t want you guys to think that I don’t care.
I do. I care, like a whole lot.
Which is why I haven’t posted anything in so long. I have not only a big writer’s block (I litteraly could not squeeze out the next chapter of Summer Fades to Fall, it is a total blank, nothing is coming up) but also, I feel like I have moved on from this fandom.
Well, not really the fandom itself, but I have moved on from writing about it, I am not as passionate about it as I used to be, I used up all of my fangirling for this, and although I still adore Pitch Perfect and I still want Bechloe canon and I still think the cast is gold, I am over the fanfiction phase. I didn’t think I would say that, but as much as I love these characters, they do not tickle my imagination as they used to, and my mind is empty of new ways to portray them.
I don’t like to say this, but I have. I have abandoned Summer Fades to Fall. Following through has always been an issue, but I hoped that having people “count” on me would be pressure enough to motivate my inspiration. It seems like that has failed, and I have to say, you guys can be as disappointed in me as you want, you won’t be as disappointed as I am of myself.
I don’t think I will be posting on this blog anytime soon, I am so so sorry to all of you hoping for a comeback of SFTF or WAY, it just doesn’t fit in my life anymore. I just wished it stopped fitting after I finished it.
I can tell you what I had planned for it, though, if anyone’s interested! I could try to do a kind of wrap-up, quick finale, but I can’t promise anything good since I haven’t written anything with fictional characters in a long time.
In other news, the main reason why I have become such a ghost is because my life is moving forward! It actually is starting to go places! After half a year as an Au Pair, I am just recently starting to get a social life, and I am so fucking proud of myself for that, it makes the itch of letting you guys down a little better. I am crippled with social anxiety, but I am going out more, doing things, and actively enjoying my days (although I do take them one at a time). So there’s that, that’s positive, right? That is something to console yourself; the real person behind the fics you like is better at life, and better with herself.
So, I will let you guys to this, I am sorry, again, really. I am not sure yet if I will put everything on FF.net and delete this blog, or just leave it as it is (although since this is my main blog, everytime I send an ask, it sends from this blog, but I have a personal blog (link on my main page, if any of you are interested) and it is confusing to new people, anyway, not relevant).
Again, guys, I apologize, I hope you still enjoyed my fics, and maybe I will see you on my personal blog (which isn’t very active neither, I am just generally not so much on Tumblr anymore, sorry)